I am miserable. I am lonely, I feel like I don't have any one there for me, and I'm FAT. Not just a little chubby; I'm 5'6" and 265 lbs. I picked up weight lifting a few months ago and it improves my mood and I haven't gained any more weight. Even if I don't go to the gym (which I rarely do because the workers are assholes) my own body weighs more than most of the weights.
But after being happy for awhile, I came back down. Looking in the mirror, I just want to slit my wrists. I want to die more than anything else. Even as a thin girl, I've never been pretty. I just want to be pretty. Yeah, I'm nice, but no one cares about that. I used to be smart, but how can I be if I let this happen to me? I'm selfish, and greedy, and dumb. I am going to go to hell. All day I'm just drowning in self loathing and sadness and it makes me crabby around my family, and then I just hate myself more. I'm an awful person. I deserve to die in a painful way. I tried looking on the internet but everyone else hates fat people too. What hope is there?
https://answers.yahoo.com/question/i...7133828AASXBci
But after being happy for awhile, I came back down. Looking in the mirror, I just want to slit my wrists. I want to die more than anything else. Even as a thin girl, I've never been pretty. I just want to be pretty. Yeah, I'm nice, but no one cares about that. I used to be smart, but how can I be if I let this happen to me? I'm selfish, and greedy, and dumb. I am going to go to hell. All day I'm just drowning in self loathing and sadness and it makes me crabby around my family, and then I just hate myself more. I'm an awful person. I deserve to die in a painful way. I tried looking on the internet but everyone else hates fat people too. What hope is there?
https://answers.yahoo.com/question/i...7133828AASXBci
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