I am a 15 year old girl. About half a year ago I wanted to lose some weight. I am 5`6". At the time I weighed 136. I wanted to weigh 130. When I got there, I wanted to weigh 125. Then, I wanted to weigh 120. Then 115. Then 110. Now I am 108 and I am working to be in the double digits. I want to be 99. Everyone always tells me I have lost so much weight, but I haven't told anyone that I was dieting because I am embarrassed of it. I never really reply but just sort of shrug it off. To lose weight I ran and restricted calories. Some days I ate as much as 1400, others down to 500. I want a thigh gap, my hip bones to show more, my ribs to show more and a stomach that isn't flat but actually goes inward.
I know that what I want is unhealthy. I consciously understand that. The thing is, I an unable to be happy without it, and I have had so much weight loss success that I know I can easily have it. I hate my body right now. I have a bmi of 17.4, which is pretty thin, but I look in the mirror and I just want to be leaner.
I haven't told anyone anything of this btw. No one knows that I have been dieting.
Do you think that I am showing signs of am eating disorder. Obviously I am showing signs, but is it serious, or am I just being narcissistic...?
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I know that what I want is unhealthy. I consciously understand that. The thing is, I an unable to be happy without it, and I have had so much weight loss success that I know I can easily have it. I hate my body right now. I have a bmi of 17.4, which is pretty thin, but I look in the mirror and I just want to be leaner.
I haven't told anyone anything of this btw. No one knows that I have been dieting.
Do you think that I am showing signs of am eating disorder. Obviously I am showing signs, but is it serious, or am I just being narcissistic...?
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