I used to be very self conscious about my weight and hated my body. I have a barrel rib cage and at the time my breasts were GG cup, so I looked/felt bigger than I was. I became ashamed of eating and restricted my diet to maybe two meals a day, max. I didn't count calories, purge, or exercise unnecessarily, and I was never diagnosed or hospitalized. I just stopped eating as much. I was hungry all the time but I ignored it because I thought it would be better to be hungry and pleased with myself than to eat food and feel guilty about it. When I was 16 I had a breast reduction, and I realized how much weight I'd actually lost. Having smaller breasts made my torso look a bit more proportionate, and the weight loss was more visible.
Now I'm in my sophomore year of college and my res hall is much closer to the dining commons than it was last year. Even so, I find myself too lazy to go get food. I'm starving all the time, but I eat a granola bar or something in the morning and if I manage to eat nothing else all day I "reward" myself with some food from the takeout place on campus. I'm only ashamed of eating if I've only had gross junk food all day, or if I spend money on something that I didn't actually need.
What it really comes down to is just not having the motivation to go get food... what's the dealio?
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Now I'm in my sophomore year of college and my res hall is much closer to the dining commons than it was last year. Even so, I find myself too lazy to go get food. I'm starving all the time, but I eat a granola bar or something in the morning and if I manage to eat nothing else all day I "reward" myself with some food from the takeout place on campus. I'm only ashamed of eating if I've only had gross junk food all day, or if I spend money on something that I didn't actually need.
What it really comes down to is just not having the motivation to go get food... what's the dealio?
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